Tuesday, January 8, 2013

When You're Not Looking, It Comes

          This is me...                                                                                     Shy.

Note 1: I have been awesome at my diet eating healthy this week! Woo-hoo! and exercising!
It's already making me feel great! and super focused. Even just a bit more confident- like proud of myself. I have resisted such tempting treats by instead sipping on some water, and if I still felt tempted even after the fact, I would eat a petit little clementine! Mmm-mmm! (Lots of explanation marks, but I'm so stoked!)

Now, you're asking where the heck this shyness is coming from? Well, I'm not flauntingly confident as I used to be. I don't even want to take off my jacket in class, so people can't see my creases. I know it's not horrendous, but it's still a complete wreck on someone's self-esteem to gain 20 pounds just like that! Hopefully, this non-gluten thing will make some of the weight drop in an instant.

In addition, I chose this picture because I want to hide and bury myself until I feel ready and comfortable enough with myself to come out and show off my hot body. Really, though, I have to keep telling myself, guys still think I'm attractive, and especially on the inside. I am beautiful. They still see those sexy legs of mine. They still see this cute girl who has such an eclectic sense of style. For a FACT!!!!!
          This guy I just met in one of my classes (goes from 6-9pm) walked me to my dorm- which literally has to be the farthest possible combination of buildings on campus. Seriously? Obviously he likes you, Kadie. Gesh! I can't complain either because finally there is a guy who likes me that is my age, super attractive, and likes me when I'm at my worst (and he doesn't even know that, so it can only get better, right?)